We Are Doing It!!!!!

It's official, my mother and I are going skydiving!  Sunday October 12, 2014 will be a memory that I will never forget.  I absolutely CAN NOT WAIT!!!  I am so excited.

The past few weeks have been about things she wanted to do and checking things off her "bucket list".  She's gone to a Red Sox game with her Dad and son.  We are doing a lobster bake, and overnight trip to Boston and the skydiving.  She has or is going to do so many wonderful things, but I am still not sure how I feel about it.  Part of me selfishly feels like we should be making memories for us because we are the ones that will have the memories.  Also she's not dying physically any time soon.  She's not physically going anywhere, so why the rush for her to do these things?  Please do not misunderstand what I am saying/feeling/thinking. Although if you do I completely understand because I have a hard time figuring it out myself.  I hate feeling like we are treating her like she is dying and has been given a time limit.  She was diagnosed with cancer and we didn't treat her like she was going anywhere.  Right?

I guess she's not going anywhere physically, but I have to realize and accept that she is going somewhere mentally and emotionally.  Maybe not this year or in the next few but eventually.  Everyone in my family copes differently.  Some may need this.  But what we need most is each other.  We need to stay strong and united.  We are going to need us and God, especially God, more than anything right now.  That's what we need to remember in the hard days ahead.  I do know that we will have the hard days, but it will be remembering the good days and memories that will help us get through.  The memories we are going to make will be part of the glue that will hold us together.

"You never know the true value of a moment until it becomes a memory."

I just want to remember my Mom the way I want to.  The  most loving, kind, compassionate, gentlest soul I have ever known.  She would do anything for anyone.  I still don't understand why God chose her and I will never know.  But what I do know is that He has a purpose for this and with Him we will get through this.

"Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose." Kevin Arnold

"Memories are timeless treasures of the heart."