I've been struggling lately with lots of things. Not feeling satisfied with life and where I am at today. I look at where I wanted to be and I'm on a whole other level in the parking garage. And a parking garage is what it feels like. Just floors after floors of the same old thing. Parked cars. I'm parked at this spot in my life and I'm not working my way up or out. Just circling the level and hoping for new things. My husband always quotes, "stupidity is doing the same thing over and over, but expecting different results. " That's me! How am I going to take my old beat up wagon and turn it into a Lexus that has a front row parking spot. You know the ones with your name on it. The ones that let others know you are someone special, so don't even think of parking here.
Well, first of all I'm going to pray. Not pray selfishly either. I'm going to start praying that God shows me His will and I open my never-seeing-eyes and SEE what He wants. I can't keep praying for that certain job, expect to get it if it's not His will. He's going to get me the job He wants me to have. I have some ideas for Him, but I'm pretty sure He doesn't need my help. Although I like to give Him a few suggestions every once in a while.
Secondly, I'm going to seek. I'm going to get motivated. I have dreams. I have ambition. Right now they are piling up in my butt making it larger and larger. They aren't doing any good there, trust me. I'm going to listen to my husband, because whether I like to believe it or not he's got some pretty good ideas. He's full of motivation if I'd only listen.
Thirdly I'm going to believe that I am better than that. That I don't have to settle and by faith and prayer I can do it.
I can pray. Listen. See. Believe. So why haven't I done them all at the same time? Instead of just doing one or two things, do them all. I can pray, but if I'm not going to see and listen to what He has for me, then what good is that. If I pray, but don't actually seek and work for it, He's not going to bless me. If I don't believe, I'll never do any of the other things. So, I'm going to take my dreams and ambitons, give them to God. Then I'm going to pray, look and listen, and believe in what He can provide for me. I'm going to believe I am special and trust that He has a parking spot for me.
