This past month has been CRAZY. Mostly good crazy, but some bad crazy too.
I turned 31, which by the way was harder than 30. I was so excited to be 30, but 31, that is a whole different thing. I will however, be going skydiving within the month thanks to my wonderful family. Realizing I may not be where I thought I would be, doing what I thought I may, or have the amount of children I thought I would (and still wouldn't mind having, but that is a blog for another day) but loving it no matter what! I thank God for that, but maybe not as much as I should.
My first born child has turned 11 and started 6th grade (which is middle school by the way). Just can't believe it. After being nervous before he left on his first day, he got off the bus, ran to me and gave me the biggest hug. <3
My youngest will start 4th grade in a few short days and is growing into a beautiful young lady. She is caring, loving, stubborn, and has a growing passion for sewing. Not sure where that comes from....
I have discovered that I need to cherish every moment I have with the ones I love you never know what is going to happen. The lose of a co-worker or the unfair diagnosis of Alzheimer's are nothing you can prepare yourself for or would ever want to. While losing someone can be expected or unexpected it's always hard. Knowing you will eventually lose your mother to an untreatable disease, there are no words. On August 26 she got the news. That crazy bad news. It was heart stopping and heart breaking. Knowing that the most caring, loving, patient, and kind hearted person will slowly change is devastating to me. I can't imagine life without her and I don't want to. You never know when someone is going to be taken from you, whether physically or eventually mentally. All you can do is be there, make time, and love those who are close. Love every moment you have with them.
I'll just keep reminding myself that my God is big and my God will be there for me. I know that I could not be here and where I am without Him.
